childish
Monday, 3 June 2013 | 0 comments
Assalammualaikum and hello.
Childish
When we quarrel, I felt annoyed. Everything that you said makes me turn into a bad mood, so I didn't response to you much. I did't communicate with you. That's why I try not to bump into each other. I'm running away from you. I'll keep myself in my room 24/7. I did everything by myself in my room. When I felt lonely, I will watch k-drama etc. I'm busy watching them that I didn't even realise whether it's a day, or night. I didn't do my works. I just didn't feel like doing it, it's boring. Sometimes I felt, why can't you makes me laugh and happy like when I watch these drama? What you do is always making me crying and turn me into a bad mood. I hate you.
I'm mad with myself
Although I hate you, I love you. and I'm so mad with myself. I'm worried if you come back late, I'm worried if you are injured. Yeah, I'm always worried. I'm so mad with myself. I hate you, but why should I still care about you? Even you didn't take a really good care of me. You did not give me a proper support of doing what I want to. I envy my friends. BUT is it true? Ahh only Allah knew everything. God, help me, please lighten my burden.
i think i get some trauma, that's why i can't communicate properly with guys
