Assalammualaikum and hello.

I'm a failure
I'm not a good student. I'm not a good daughter. I'm not a good friend. I'm not a good slave to Allah. I'm not good in study. I'm totally a failure. It's not because of my parents, it's because of myself. I felt like I have given up on my life, my happiness. I prefered to be alone. I don't want to bother people. I don't want people to know what I'm doing. I don't want people to get hurt because of me. I don't want people to live a life like mine. I don't want people to feel what I felt. I don't want people to waste their money, time and life for me. I'm not good enough to get those things. I'm just a useless bastard. I can't do anything right. So please, stop acting being nice with me, when you actually hate me. Stop wasting your life doing things for me. It won't change me, because it's too late. I've already given up my life. The reason why I like to watch k-drama so much because, it gives me hope. Hope for me to come back to a right path. Even though it's just an acting, I get the massage that the director want an audience to know. I'm living because of those hopeful words. Even I can't success like in the drama actors, the made me felt like I'm living in another world. A world full of hope. A world that won't dissapoint you. I want to be like them. It looks easy in drama, but in real life its a..

i have someone that i''ll listen to her, because she listened to me since i'm worst than a bastard. my sister.